Thursday, May 26, 2005

YES!!! Woohoo this made my day (so far my day has consisted of reading a big red book that is labelled "Tort") and I swear I got this on my first attempt! So if I sound like the guy for you just email me babe!! ;)






Your Seduction Style: Ideal Lover





You seduce people by tapping into their dreams and desires.
And because of this sensitivity, you can be the ideal lover for anyone you seek.
You are a shapeshifter - bringing romance, adventure, spirituality to relationships.
It all depends on who your with, and what their vision of a perfect relationship is.


Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Wonder why musicians always commit suicide? It's because you write and compose best when you're depressed! I'm no where near committing suicide tho, it's just an observation that I write a lot of music when I'm down, right now the guitar and me are inseparable! :D Thanks to Cameron for talking to me tons man, you really helped a brother out.

Learnt Eric Clapton's "Wonderful Tonight," it's a lovely song, so touching, and what I hope to tell my significant other every day for the rest of her life when we finally meet.

Monday, May 23, 2005

Dang, I'm weird! Only 30% normal, not that I didn't know that already :)
And the marriage thing... wow, true is all I can say :)
Now if I can get married to someone equally weird (highly unlikely) things would be sweet!
Feeling much better today, had a huge cry out to God for about 1.5 hours but felt way better and got good sleep. Parents flew back to Malaysia today, hmm.. it's a good and bad thing, I can finally go out past 10 o'clock now (slight exaggeration) but I'm not gonna be able to eat as much (well, I'll lose some weight so that may be great too!).
Still worried about the tests this week but I don't seem to be acting like it.
Oh well, life can be segmented sometimes, many different areas changing at all times. Unfortunately life waits for no man/woman/ and isn't likely to slow down. Enjoy the tests! :)





You Are 30% Normal

(Occasionally Normal)









You sure do march to your own beat...

But you're so weird, people wonder if it's a beat at all

You think on a totally different wavelength

And it's often a chore to get people to understand you
















The Keys to Your Heart



You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.


Sunday, May 22, 2005

Went to Abby's 21st Birthday party last night! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABBY if you ever read this...
Went back, and well.. felt lonely, been melancholic all day.. Having some past issues resurface, burdens that I thought I had worked through but it seems I'm back at square one.
The hurt has all come back to me.. I'm hoping it's temporary and will go away..
The hurt of losing your biggest joy in life.
The hurt of hurting the person you love because you did your best to love them but it had the exact opposite effect.
The hurt of destroying years of hardwork in a couple of seconds.
Yea, it's a black day, followed with black weather, but God is the strength of my heart, and He is the strength in all my weakness. I can only thank Him because He cares for me as an individual.
Meanwhile I've got 2 tests this week, a bit clueless on what to do for them actually but let's hope i pull out a fluke like usual :)

"Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong...."
On Bended Knee, by Boyz to Men.

Darlin' I, I can't explain
Where did we lose our way
Girl it's drivin' me insane
And I know I just need one more chance
To prove my love to you
If you come back to me
I'll guarantee
That I'll never let you go

Can we go back to the days our love was strong
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
Can somebody tell me how to get things back
The way they used to be
Oh God give me the reason
I'm down on bended knee
I'll never walk again, until you come back to me
I'm down on bended knee

So many nights I dream of you
Holding my pillow tight
I know that I don't need to be alone
When I open up my eyes
To face reality
Every moment without you
It seems like eternity
I'm begging you, begging you come back to me

(Baby, Im sorry. Please forgive me for all the wrong I've done.
Please come back home girl. I know you put all your trust
in me, I'm sorry I let you down. Please forgive me girl.)

I'm gonna swallow my pride
Say I'm sorry
Stop pointing fingers, the blame is on me
I want a new life
And I want it with you
If you feel the same
Don't ever let it go
You gotta believe, in the spirit of love
it can heal all things
We won't hurt any more
No I don't believe our love's terminal
I'm down on my knees, begging you please
Come home

Friday, May 20, 2005

You never know what life is going to throw your way, just hope that you're up to the task and catch what's going your way without fumbling.

Yea, complexities of life are bittersweet, without them our lives would be so much smoother but without them our lives would be boring. You also cannot fully experience the sweet without tasting the most bitter.

Both my parents are recovering and out of the hospital, thank God! It's been testing, having to juggle that, my studies (four major assessments in a month), and my sister's two kids running around in our small little apartment (7 people in 3 bedrooms! plus i was kicked out of my room! >_<).

I really wanna prove to myself that I can do well in Law, I don't know what standard I've set for myself but I do know I wanna do the best I can. However there are certain justifiable limits to effort of course, but I know I can probably do better.
Law is a challenge, trying to comprehend the full area of Law and handling pages and pages of reading, I'm certainly enjoying it, but at the same time as a result of lack of self-will I'm falling behind. I know I've had some troubles, but for me, that shouldn't stop me from aiming, striving and achieving.

I've been asking myself a question of whether it's worth it to strive as hard as I have been? Will working this hard make my life easier for the rest of my life (as people say it will) or will it just train me to work hard as a dog for the rest of my life? I certainly don't wanna be one of those yuppies trapped in their race to 'keep up with the Jones'' but yet there are demands for financial stability and comfort in the future. I guess this is all part of life, and to have faith in God. It becomes a much harder and bigger lesson to learn when you're entering adulthood, when the only one responsible for keeping you fed is yourself. Please God teach me to trust in your provision for tomorrow will worry about itself.

Yesterday is past, tomorrow has not yet come, today is when you must ACT!