I just saw an MTV and thought it was worth sharing coz it meant a little something to me.

It's called "Why Go" by Faithless and I can only explain what happens as best as I can with words but it goes a little something like this. It's about this girl who can't stop dancing! it starts off with her dancing in a club (nothing unusual there!) but as she leaves the club she dances through the exit (not so weird) but as she walks back home she just keeps dancing (energizer bunny has nothing against this girl!) even when she brushes her teeth, sleeps (yes sleep-dancing!) and wakes up. She does this on the streets, on the railway, on the lift at work, at work, and gets tons of dirty stares from people that say "what are you doing???" you prolly know what i'm talking about. But anyway, that doesn't stop her and she just keeps dancing to her own tune and can't care less what everybody else thinks. And throughout all this, everyone else is acting really bland and normal.

She keeps dancing (as you guessed!) on the way back from work and while going down the escalator. You suddenly see this guy going up the escalator who's dancing as wild as her, and TA-DAH their eyes meet. And then, you see them at a formal dinner dancing! and they even make love dancing (alluded to, no nudity!), and get married, and have kids that dance! Definately the most romantic Techno song I've ever seen! hehe.

But yeah, it was really funny and yet really strangely encouraging at the same time. We all have our own different music that we dance to in life, and you don't have to comply to the World, and we go through life until we meet someone else that dances to that same tune, and it doesn't have to be every girl you see. So i guess what the MTV is saying is that you shouldn't put on a show to impress girls/guys, just be who you are, there's no need to change to impress anyone else, and until you find that other person that sings your song/dances to your tune, just keep enjoying life and keep rocking! :D I think that everyone has their own song, and everyone their own beat, just find that one that matches yours! Try and see this video if you can download it, my words don't do it justice.

Think you can watch it at http://de.music.yahoo.com/musicvideos/lists/byalpha.asp?l=f&p=1

To dare to live alone is the rarest courage; since there are many who had rather meet their bitterest enemy in the field, than their own hearts in their closet.

- Charles Caleb Colton

Pray that your loneliness may spur you into finding something to live for, great enough to die for.

- Dag Hammarskjold

The most I ever did for you was to outlive you. But that is much.

- Edna St. Vincent Millay

Theres nothing terribly wrong with feeling lost, so long as that feeling precedes some plan on your part to actually do something about it. Too often a person grows complacent with their disillusionment, perpetually wearing their "discomfort" like a favorite shirt.

- Jhonen Vasquez

There is absolutely no point in sitting around and feeling sorry for youself. The great power you have is to let go ... focus on what you have, no that which has been mean or unkindly removed.

- Minnie Driver

To transform the emptiness of loneliness, to the fullness of aloneness. Ah, that is the secret of life.

- Sunita Khosla

One may have a blazing hearth in one's soul, and yet no one ever comes to sit by it.

- Vincent van Gogh

When Christ said: "I was hungry and you fed me," he didn't mean only the hunger for bread and for food; he also meant the hunger to be loved. Jesus himself experienced this loneliness. He came amongst his own and his own received him not, and it hurt him then and it has kept on hurting him. The same hunger, the same loneliness, the same having no one to be accepted by and to be loved and wanted by. Every human being in that case resembles Christ in his loneliness; and that is the hardest part, that's real hunger.

- Mother Teresa


There are times in ones life where one must face adversity in the form of loneliness. Be wise to know that this is not forever, it is only but for a moment, a stage for you to find out what you are really made of. And maybe it can be said that there is no complete victory and that some fear of oneself will always remain, but even within the darkest moment, there is hope. I choose to face these moments and not to let them overtake me because God is my strength and my portion forever.
Create and appreciate happy lasting memories of your family, friends and special ones because in moments like these, they are all that accompany you in the darkest of hours.
When you think that all you do is worth nothing, that all your endeavours are a gust in the wind, that you have no one to live for, remember that to God you were worth everything, and you prolly mean a lot more to your friends than you think.

-Charles Ling

Ok thought I'd pop in for a post because God deserves all the glory for saving my butt this week :D Thank you God!

Alright my cutesy little bum has been saved 3 times this week but I'll just put down the two coolest little ones down coz I need to catch some shuteye soon.

Alright scenario 1 (and it did really happen) me and my mate Daniel were coming home one morning after having a guys night out with the boys and so he was crashing at my place as per usual after such occasions. And on such occasions he would normally park in the visitors carpark right beside my apartment, but tonight he asked "Charlie (yeah he calls me that, definately not a term of endearment i can tell u that *takes some anti-homosexual mouthspray*) should I park in front of your garage? Ok normally my car would be in that spot because the Jagster would be in the garage and my car would be outside of the garage, but it was away at the mechanics for repairs (I didn't crash it, just routine repairs so take that smirk off ur face :P)! And so i agreed, but the next morning when I woke up, I found out that all the cars at the visitor carpark were broken into and had stuff stolen, and Dan's car which is only 5 meters away from there hadn't been broken into. Thank You God, You're awesome moment #1!

Thank You God, You're awesome moment #2 happened today. I lost my wallet, but managed to find it for lunch time at the place i sat in class, weird I thought, this kinda stuff doesn't normally happen to me. Turns out that there is a hole in my pocket the size of Denmark (well.. ok my pants aren't THAT big). So I lost it again, which really sucked because here i was living alone, and losing my wallet would mean I would've had to start searching telephone booths for coins for dinner :P But actually thank God just yesterday I had just gone shopping and bought enough groceries to last the next ice age, but still i was a little angry/sad/worried/sick/tired (woah that's a lotta emotions) but I remembered really quick that God had brought me through such things before. And so I prayed to God "You've done awesomer things in my life before, I'm trusting You" and went on with my day. Small miracle number 2, i usually keep my bus card in my wallet straight after i get on the bus to go to uni, but today i was feeling lazy (mayb coz i was sick) and my bus card was in my other pocket (with no hole thankfully!) and it had one last bus ride on it, so I could get home! Ok, so I reach home after university, and then I'm going to call James my friend for some money while I'm wallet-less, and lo and behold, there is a voicemail on my cell phone from James saying that my auntie has my wallet! LOL. Well my wallet has my drivers license in it which has my old address (i shld really tell them that I moved) which is 29A Winstone Road, and it turns out that my auntie through some circumstances moved to 29 Winstone Road (the house in front). So.. it turns out he was walking around 29A, and she asked him what he was doing, and he showed her my wallet!! Haha and so I went to pick it up and it's sitting here right in front of my monitor now. My trust in pockets has been severely misplaced. Pockets are overrated (especially Hole-y pockets, haha bad joke I know).

So yeah.. if that made sense, congratulations you should be a lawyer. But really really Thank You God, You're awesome! :) I know my faith in You is not misplaced and I stepped out in faith and trust You and You came through for me! Thank You for your 101 miracles and giving me my wallet back. You really do work in strange and mysterious ways! :)