Emo diarhoea from the past from the unsent msgs in my cellphone, I have more personal ones which I won't put up here. I might use some of these lyrics for my songs so that's why they are up here:

I want to love you but 've been too hurt before.
I want to let you in but my heart has closed the door.
Ive been left in the cold to suffer on my own and now though I've found the perfect one
I remember that I've forgotten how to love anymore.

You've can't expect any song just to blow your world apart.
It takes a bit of luck too she told me.
And a bit of feel, and it feels so surreal.

I learnt all the rules so I could break them with you
You make me feel alive again.

She's got summer in her eyes,
With flowers, daisies and butterflies.

Undecided, don't know which road to choose,
coz i'm scared that I'll make a mistake I won't be able to undo
Whether I'll want my life to mean something or to make a million bucks
How can I love you, when I still don't know who I am
I'm trying to discover just who I really will be
The kind of man I become when the shit hits the fan
And though we know our feelings, I'll not offer you my heart
Coz I know I can still be a better man for you
I'll not give you a book with empty pages
Coz you deserve a masterpiece.

I still remember the way she made me feel,
So dumbstruck, completely and totally unreal

He doesn't treat you like you deserve,
He doesn't love you like I do
I can make you happy,
Why can't you see?
But you still love him, but that's why I love you
That's why I'll keep waiting, do all that I can,
Stay here waiting, be there for you,
I'll hope that one day my love will get through to you
And you'll realise
That I loved you till the point of breaking myself
I gave everything I had, every last tear and prayer,
until I had nothing else to give,
and life I could barely live,
Just so I could hold your hand again.

Time to let your heart move on,
and time for you to let go
You're hurting no one but yourself,
And bringing me as you go
I cannot bear to see you hurt anymore
And i want to make you happy
I was born to make you happy I'm sure

My love doesn't expect anything in return
but I don't want to burden you with an unwanted love either..

She has moved on now, I know she has and I don't blame her. No one could've put up with all the foolish stunts that I tried to pull. Believe me, I only pulled them because I didn't know how to act, I never felt the feelings I felt before. I really didn't want to lose her and I tried everything to prevent that, but I have. I wasn't being myself, I apologise for that. But it's too late now to right the wrongs I did.

Despite everything, I fell in love with your heart, and I know deep down that that heart still remains. Just that you're heart doesn't belong to me anymore. So good luck in your life, your dreams, your passions, I hope we always remain friends. You will make one man incredibly happy one day. =) Thank you for briefly sharing your heart with me.


"The Contract"

the solution to your problem is simple.
it is a contract between your heart and mine.

you promise to:
1) to always be yourself.
2) give me a real chance to win your heart.
2) that if i succeed, that you'll never think of anyone else anymore.
3) if you never think of anyone else anymore, that you will try to entertain me everyday and make me happy.
4) to accept whatever i to give you, just be happy and don't feel guilty.

i promise to
1) always love you like no one else will ever love you.
2) to be different from all the other guys chasing you.
3) to love you for who you really are and not just for what you look like.
4) when i see you need a hug or someone to hold your hand. u won't need to ask me to hug you, i'll come and give it to you without you asking.
5) maybe one day, give you children that you will adore and love.
6) support you in your dreams, whatever they are.
7) if you are hungry, i will feed you.
8) when you are cold, i will keep you warm.
9) to ask how your day is everyday.
10) when you have a problem, to solve your problems.
11) when you need a man, i'll be a man
12) when you need a friend, i'll be a friend
13) to always listen to you
14) to always try to understand you.
15) when you ask me to leave you, or to forget, to never leave you or forget you.

so our mutual obligations are:
1) you'll love me. and i'll love you. always.

the contract is as simple as that."

No matter how hard I try to move, my heart still can't forget yours right now.