Argh, it's 1.30 AM, why do I do this to myself? I know I'm gonna regret this when I wake up tomorrow because I'll be so tired during the day!! But still, i guess i must be a glutton for punishment then~

I've got this song stuck in my head, and heart i guess. It's got such a nice chorus that I just sing over and over again for hours, I guess it's bcoz I know what that guy's going through, coz the song describes almost exactly how my break up exp was. Life is tough and confusing, I always think I'm over "her" but something comes along and I feel like i need "her" again, but it's normally just temporary. But as they say... "time is the best healer of hearts" and all I gotta do is grit my teeth during the hard days and enjoy the good days.

"And I'm just standing there I can't say a word Because everything is just gone I've got nothing Absolutely nothing

'Cause I can't imagine my life without you and me There's things I can't imagine doing Things I can't imagine seeing It weren't supposed to be easy, surely Please, please, I'm begging, please"

Wow... I must've thought those words up a million times when it happened, how'd he get them in HIS song? :P

There have been a few days where she's not entered my mind at all though... I think... So I guess I must be making progress! But I can't/don't want to make myself hate her to get over her (even tho mayb she did that to me), I want to do this the right way! And the relationship was such a cornerstone in my life and we had so many good times, I don't want to distort the memories.. But life works out for the best u know? Just suck it in and keep ur chin up boy!

Anyway, here's the song, it's called Dry Your Eyes by The Streets

In one single moment, your whole life can turn round
I stand there for a minute, staring straight into the ground
Looking to the left slightly, then looking back down
The world feels like it's caved in, proper sorry frown

Please let me show you where we could only just be for us
I can change, and I can grow, or we could adjust
The wicked thing about us is we always have trust
We can even have an open relationship if you must

I look at her, she stares almost straight back at me
But her eyes glaze over, like she's looking straight through me
Her eyes must have closed for what seems an eternity
When they open up she's looking down at her feet

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take, but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now, it's over

So then I move my hand up and down by my side
It's shaking; my life is crashing before my eyes
I turn the palm of my hand up to face the skies
Touch the bottom of her chin and let out a sigh

'Cause I can't imagine my life without you and me
There's things I can't imagine doing
Things I can't imagine seeing
It weren't supposed to be easy, surely
Please, please, I'm begging, please

She brings her hands up towards where my hands rested
She wraps her fingers around mine with the softness she's blessed with
She peels away my fingers, looks at me and then gestures
By pushing my hand away to my chest, from hers

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take, but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now, it's over

And I'm just standing there
I can't say a word
Because everything is just gone
I've got nothing
Absolutely nothing

Trying to pull her close out of bear desperation
Put my arms around her, trying to change what she's saying
Pull my head level with hers so that she might engage in
Look in to her eyes to make her listen again

I'm not gonna fucking just fucking leave it all now
'Cause you said it'd be forever, and that was your vow
And your gonna let our things simply crash and fall down
You're well out of order now, this is well out of town

She pulls away my arms, tightly clamped round her waist
Gently pushes me back as she looks at me straight
Turns around so she's now got her back to my face
Takes one step forward, looks back, then walks away

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take, but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now, it's over

I know in the past I've found it hard to say
Telling you things, but not telling straight
But the more I pull on your hand and say
The more you pull away

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take, but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now