What's been up in my life:
Camps camps camps! And the church Youth Musical! You can read my good friend James Ong's blog for more details! I don't have an internet connection at home in Malaysia, so I don't have much time to blog, and I've been really busy. Hope everyone's going well and has a really great Christmas! God bless you guys~~
http://j-mes.blogspot.com/2006/12/campscampsmusicalpart-1.html
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Blog 2
It was a cool balmy 24 degrees centigrade when the plane touched down in KLIA. It’s been raining apparently, so the huge shock one normally gets from stepping outside of KLIA was somewhat dampened. The extra humidity in the air is still noticeable though. It’s interesting how my brain is handling this, I was surprised that it was like I had not left at all, it’s like once I arrived back in Malaysia, all the time in NZ was a dream. It is as though I had never got on the plane for NZ at the beginning of the year, and that I had just visited KLIA and was about to just head out after a day. I still remember vividly eating at McDonalds with my dad as if it was yesterday, I could probably still remember what we ordered too. Maybe this is what they mean by the saying “when I dream that I am a butterfly, am I a man dreaming I am a butterfly? Or am I a butterfly dreaming that I am a man?” Well.. it is 4.15am NZ time so maybe my mind is just not processing the information correctly.
Even before an hour on the road, and already we’ve seen an accident happen on the motorway. Some boyracer was going too fast when suddenly 2 lanes merged into one because of road works, and the car lost control. Thankfully the car was able to slow down considerably before hitting the barrier, causing minimal damage. But yeah, wow Malaysian driving is scary!
I am now on the way to Bidor, which is about 2 hours away from KL, we have a certain shop that we always stop by for food, it’s become somewhat of a tradition now. It’s great to see mum and dad again, we’ve spent the last hour catching up on each others lives. I’m feeling sleepy, tired, and jetlagged, but also have a sense of security now that I’m in the passenger seat with my parents driving again.
Just like old times.
5.08am – we stopped by Bidor and had a bite to eat. Once again, it seemed like I had just been to it last week, but it has already been a year. I told my parents this and my dad said “yeah of course it hasn’t changed, it hasn’t changed in 20 or 40 years!” Coming back from living in a city, that’s a really difficult concept to grasp, everything changes in a city, and quickly too!
Although I dreaded making the trip back, having to travel for about slightly less than 20 hours, as soon as the food we ordered came and I stuck the first fishball into my mouth, I realised that it was all worth it. Just one bite and all my regrets of leaving disappeared. What price can you put on a taste of home?
We ordered fishball soup, ee mee, a fish dish (haruan), and halfway through my parents decided to order turtle! I felt a bit hesitant at first, seeing how turtles are endangered but when in rome, do as the romans do. It kinda had the texture of beef, although there were other parts which were different like the bone and tendons. I haven’t had turtle in a very long time, possibly about 8 years or so.
There’s no real point in this post, just a record of my thoughts and musings.
It was a cool balmy 24 degrees centigrade when the plane touched down in KLIA. It’s been raining apparently, so the huge shock one normally gets from stepping outside of KLIA was somewhat dampened. The extra humidity in the air is still noticeable though. It’s interesting how my brain is handling this, I was surprised that it was like I had not left at all, it’s like once I arrived back in Malaysia, all the time in NZ was a dream. It is as though I had never got on the plane for NZ at the beginning of the year, and that I had just visited KLIA and was about to just head out after a day. I still remember vividly eating at McDonalds with my dad as if it was yesterday, I could probably still remember what we ordered too. Maybe this is what they mean by the saying “when I dream that I am a butterfly, am I a man dreaming I am a butterfly? Or am I a butterfly dreaming that I am a man?” Well.. it is 4.15am NZ time so maybe my mind is just not processing the information correctly.
Even before an hour on the road, and already we’ve seen an accident happen on the motorway. Some boyracer was going too fast when suddenly 2 lanes merged into one because of road works, and the car lost control. Thankfully the car was able to slow down considerably before hitting the barrier, causing minimal damage. But yeah, wow Malaysian driving is scary!
I am now on the way to Bidor, which is about 2 hours away from KL, we have a certain shop that we always stop by for food, it’s become somewhat of a tradition now. It’s great to see mum and dad again, we’ve spent the last hour catching up on each others lives. I’m feeling sleepy, tired, and jetlagged, but also have a sense of security now that I’m in the passenger seat with my parents driving again.
Just like old times.
5.08am – we stopped by Bidor and had a bite to eat. Once again, it seemed like I had just been to it last week, but it has already been a year. I told my parents this and my dad said “yeah of course it hasn’t changed, it hasn’t changed in 20 or 40 years!” Coming back from living in a city, that’s a really difficult concept to grasp, everything changes in a city, and quickly too!
Although I dreaded making the trip back, having to travel for about slightly less than 20 hours, as soon as the food we ordered came and I stuck the first fishball into my mouth, I realised that it was all worth it. Just one bite and all my regrets of leaving disappeared. What price can you put on a taste of home?
We ordered fishball soup, ee mee, a fish dish (haruan), and halfway through my parents decided to order turtle! I felt a bit hesitant at first, seeing how turtles are endangered but when in rome, do as the romans do. It kinda had the texture of beef, although there were other parts which were different like the bone and tendons. I haven’t had turtle in a very long time, possibly about 8 years or so.
There’s no real point in this post, just a record of my thoughts and musings.
Monday, December 04, 2006
My Perfect Day
It's not everyday you get to go swimming in paradise!
It's not everyday you get to go swimming in paradise!
With a great view right next to the swimming pool!
Where the kids are happy,
And the family aren't trying to kill each other,
And the water's clean, cool and refreshing,
And you even have some champagne on the ice...
And let's not forget the kids!
GREETINGS FROM MALAYSIA! I hope everyone is having as great a time as I am! God bless you all these holidays!!
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Here I am, sitting in front of my computer at 3.54am on the 23rd of November 2006. In 10 hours, I will be on a flight due for Kuala Lumpur International Airport. Although the yearly 3 month trip back to Malaysia is a journey that I have made physically, mentally, psychologically many times in my life, it is somewhat different now. It is possibly one of the last few times that I will be able to be with my family for such an extended period of time. I wasn't even supposed to come back for this long this time round were it not for my brother's wedding.
The truth is that most adults that work and live away from their hometowns don't get the chance to spend months reconnecting with their roots in their hometowns. Sometimes they can only spend 2 or 3 days visiting their parents. I am privileged to be able to come back and reintegrate with the town that I grew up in.
I remember that for a period in my teens of about 2 or 3 years, our family never sat down as a family unit together for dinner even once. This was because of our links both to New Zealand and Malaysia, my sister and my brother would be studying in New Zealand, or my parents would be away back in Malaysia. So I was tremendously happy a couple years later when once again my whole family sat at the same table; my father, mother, brother, sister, grandmother and me. That is why I cherish coming home and spending time with my family. It won't be long until my brother moves into his own new house (which is next door to my father's house btw), and my sister and Jake move back to New Zealand, and I'll be somewhere God only knows and the family unit that I know of will forever be changed.
I have got a couple things to look forward to, we are moving into a new house, my brother Anthony Ling is getting married to Jo Cyee after 4-5 years of courtship, the yearly musical that was postponed last year might be held this year, being a helper at the national Methodist Youth camp Youthquake, and seeing old friends and finding new adventures!
And once again, I feel a reluctance to let go of the life I have built this year in New Zealand. I still haven't really cleaned up my house since exams were over. I have close friends whom I do not want to leave for 3 months. I want to explore who I am and what I can be now that I have time.
But these feelings aren't new, these conflicts not unfelt before. It's just that with these old feelings comes a new feeling of urgency. To make the most of my time that I have left in Malaysia.
Because I'll be coming home as usual, but it may not be the usual much longer.
The truth is that most adults that work and live away from their hometowns don't get the chance to spend months reconnecting with their roots in their hometowns. Sometimes they can only spend 2 or 3 days visiting their parents. I am privileged to be able to come back and reintegrate with the town that I grew up in.
I remember that for a period in my teens of about 2 or 3 years, our family never sat down as a family unit together for dinner even once. This was because of our links both to New Zealand and Malaysia, my sister and my brother would be studying in New Zealand, or my parents would be away back in Malaysia. So I was tremendously happy a couple years later when once again my whole family sat at the same table; my father, mother, brother, sister, grandmother and me. That is why I cherish coming home and spending time with my family. It won't be long until my brother moves into his own new house (which is next door to my father's house btw), and my sister and Jake move back to New Zealand, and I'll be somewhere God only knows and the family unit that I know of will forever be changed.
I have got a couple things to look forward to, we are moving into a new house, my brother Anthony Ling is getting married to Jo Cyee after 4-5 years of courtship, the yearly musical that was postponed last year might be held this year, being a helper at the national Methodist Youth camp Youthquake, and seeing old friends and finding new adventures!
And once again, I feel a reluctance to let go of the life I have built this year in New Zealand. I still haven't really cleaned up my house since exams were over. I have close friends whom I do not want to leave for 3 months. I want to explore who I am and what I can be now that I have time.
But these feelings aren't new, these conflicts not unfelt before. It's just that with these old feelings comes a new feeling of urgency. To make the most of my time that I have left in Malaysia.
Because I'll be coming home as usual, but it may not be the usual much longer.
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Of Fairy Tales and Fables
If you look to www.dictionary.com and searched for the word "fable," you would get this as the first result. According to dictionary.com, a fable is "a short tale to teach a moral lesson, often with animals or inanimate objects as characters; apologue: the fable of the tortoise and the hare; Aesop's fables."
How many of us would remember who Aesop was? Or what some of his fables were? And no, Fable is not a computer game developed by Lionhead Studios! I remember reading about the fox and his sour grapes when I was young and learning good a moral lesson - never despise what we cannot get. Looking back in my life, I see that this little lesson has played a big part in my life, and how did i learn this lesson? A mere fable. The television shows that kids watch these days, such as Spongebob Squarepants and Cow and Chicken, seem more for entertainment than for teaching kids about morals and values. Can we blame people then when they don't know anything about sportsmanship or honesty? No, not really. However, some cartoons do attempt to espouse good moral values but once again I would say that it is still overshadowed by the need to entertain. We do need to be mindful of what we feed our children's minds, and our own minds. Anyways, That's not really the point of this post.
An interesting fact, did you know that it was not uncommon for a fable to not have a happy ending? Hansen and Gretel were eaten by the witch, for example. However, people like happy endings and now almost every story you hear has a happy ending.
The REAL point of this post for me to tell you a little fable. I call it:
"The Bird and the Boy"
There once was a boy and a bird. The boy lived by himself in a small house and the bird lived in a nest in a tree just outside the boy's house. Now, it was springtime and so all the birds would chirp and sing but this bird was the best of them all. The bird would sing louder than any other bird. The bird would sing all day, in the morning, in the afternoon and again in the evening.
Now the boy had heard the bird singing every day, but he disliked the bird because it disturbed his peace and quiet. He would chase the bird away everytime the bird began to sing. But the bird, as birds do, continued to sing his merry little song.
One day, the boy was got so angry that he came up with a plan. He would throw poisoned food outside of his house and maybe the bird would eat it and become sick. He did this.
The next day, the boy heard the bird singing again, loud as ever. However, he decided to forget about the bird and continue with his daily life.
One week later, the boy noticed that the bird did not sing anymore. There was no more cheerful chirps around his house during that day. "Maybe the bird is just too busy to sing today," the boy thought. The next day, the boy tried to listen for the bird's song, but again there was no song to be heard. The boy started to get worried but as the days passed, the little bird did not appear.
The boy realised that he missed the bird and its songs. He felt lonely now that the house was so quiet. He remembered how the bird would sing and fill the house with song, but now all that was left was the boy and his little home.
*THE END*
Little bird, where are you? Won't you come back and sing another song?
If you look to www.dictionary.com and searched for the word "fable," you would get this as the first result. According to dictionary.com, a fable is "a short tale to teach a moral lesson, often with animals or inanimate objects as characters; apologue: the fable of the tortoise and the hare; Aesop's fables."
How many of us would remember who Aesop was? Or what some of his fables were? And no, Fable is not a computer game developed by Lionhead Studios! I remember reading about the fox and his sour grapes when I was young and learning good a moral lesson - never despise what we cannot get. Looking back in my life, I see that this little lesson has played a big part in my life, and how did i learn this lesson? A mere fable. The television shows that kids watch these days, such as Spongebob Squarepants and Cow and Chicken, seem more for entertainment than for teaching kids about morals and values. Can we blame people then when they don't know anything about sportsmanship or honesty? No, not really. However, some cartoons do attempt to espouse good moral values but once again I would say that it is still overshadowed by the need to entertain. We do need to be mindful of what we feed our children's minds, and our own minds. Anyways, That's not really the point of this post.
An interesting fact, did you know that it was not uncommon for a fable to not have a happy ending? Hansen and Gretel were eaten by the witch, for example. However, people like happy endings and now almost every story you hear has a happy ending.
The REAL point of this post for me to tell you a little fable. I call it:
"The Bird and the Boy"
There once was a boy and a bird. The boy lived by himself in a small house and the bird lived in a nest in a tree just outside the boy's house. Now, it was springtime and so all the birds would chirp and sing but this bird was the best of them all. The bird would sing louder than any other bird. The bird would sing all day, in the morning, in the afternoon and again in the evening.
Now the boy had heard the bird singing every day, but he disliked the bird because it disturbed his peace and quiet. He would chase the bird away everytime the bird began to sing. But the bird, as birds do, continued to sing his merry little song.
One day, the boy was got so angry that he came up with a plan. He would throw poisoned food outside of his house and maybe the bird would eat it and become sick. He did this.
The next day, the boy heard the bird singing again, loud as ever. However, he decided to forget about the bird and continue with his daily life.
One week later, the boy noticed that the bird did not sing anymore. There was no more cheerful chirps around his house during that day. "Maybe the bird is just too busy to sing today," the boy thought. The next day, the boy tried to listen for the bird's song, but again there was no song to be heard. The boy started to get worried but as the days passed, the little bird did not appear.
The boy realised that he missed the bird and its songs. He felt lonely now that the house was so quiet. He remembered how the bird would sing and fill the house with song, but now all that was left was the boy and his little home.
*THE END*
Little bird, where are you? Won't you come back and sing another song?
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
My dad and his brothers and sisters have always been close even though there are often a lot of dramas between them. But they know well that blood is thicker than water. When my grandfather was still alive, my uncles and aunties would meet up every night at his house to chat about daily events and when we were young, we would be brought along to this daily ritual. I had stayed at my grandfathers house for a few years with my family after we moved back to Malaysia while my house was being built. So this means that I got to know my cousins pretty well after seeing them every night for years.
I have more than 15 cousins on my father's side. However, I do not consider myself close with all of them. However, there has always been 2 of my cousins that I have considered closer to me than the others. One of these 2 is my cousin Jamie.
My dear beautiful cousin Jamie was married on the 4th of November 2006. She is 2 years older than me but sometimes I felt that I was the one protecting her from all her admirers (and she had a lot!). We have always been close since we were young. I remember the times when we were younger when we would play Ghost, and cook things on milo lids with candles for fires, and go out with lanterns during the mooncake festival to 'scare evil spirits' away. I will also always remember being taken to Pesta Laut (before they banned it!) with your family and how you and Annie told me it was bad to whistle at night because real ghosts would follow me home. I remember the talks and laughs we shared throughout the years. Your family helped make me feel welcome when I was just a young boy who had just moved back from New Zealand and had no friends. I am just so grateful to God for such a great cousin.
However, girls who dream of marriage change into women who get married so CONGRATULATIONS FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. I pray God's blessing on your marriage and may you bring God's presence to your new family! Sorry I couldn't make it because I had exams then. So a note on blogspot will have to do for now till I can offer you my congrats in person.
We are still close (she works for my dad), but I wonder how things will turn out now that you're married. Will we still be the same? Somehow I think we will. :) Benz you are a very lucky guy, you need to take care of my cousin or you will have to answer to me! Hehe, I guess I still got that protective streak in me.
Congratulations Jamie, may you find your happily ever after. I think you owe me a celebratory dinner when I get back to Malaysia. ;)
I have more than 15 cousins on my father's side. However, I do not consider myself close with all of them. However, there has always been 2 of my cousins that I have considered closer to me than the others. One of these 2 is my cousin Jamie.
My dear beautiful cousin Jamie was married on the 4th of November 2006. She is 2 years older than me but sometimes I felt that I was the one protecting her from all her admirers (and she had a lot!). We have always been close since we were young. I remember the times when we were younger when we would play Ghost, and cook things on milo lids with candles for fires, and go out with lanterns during the mooncake festival to 'scare evil spirits' away. I will also always remember being taken to Pesta Laut (before they banned it!) with your family and how you and Annie told me it was bad to whistle at night because real ghosts would follow me home. I remember the talks and laughs we shared throughout the years. Your family helped make me feel welcome when I was just a young boy who had just moved back from New Zealand and had no friends. I am just so grateful to God for such a great cousin.
However, girls who dream of marriage change into women who get married so CONGRATULATIONS FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. I pray God's blessing on your marriage and may you bring God's presence to your new family! Sorry I couldn't make it because I had exams then. So a note on blogspot will have to do for now till I can offer you my congrats in person.
We are still close (she works for my dad), but I wonder how things will turn out now that you're married. Will we still be the same? Somehow I think we will. :) Benz you are a very lucky guy, you need to take care of my cousin or you will have to answer to me! Hehe, I guess I still got that protective streak in me.
Congratulations Jamie, may you find your happily ever after. I think you owe me a celebratory dinner when I get back to Malaysia. ;)
Monday, October 30, 2006
"No I'm not color blind. I know the world is black and white"
The lyrical genius that is John Mayer. From his album "Continuum," highly recommended, highly enjoyed. Damn near made me cry once I found what the words were.
The song is about life, and how fast it passes, and how we can never seem to stop it.
Psalm 39 says
4 "Show me, O LORD, my life's end
and the number of my days;
let me know how fleeting is my life.
5 You have made my days a mere handbreadth;
the span of my years is as nothing before you.
Each man's life is but a breath.
Selah
6 Man is a mere phantom as he goes to and fro:
He bustles about, but only in vain;
he heaps up wealth, not knowing who will get it.
7 "But now, Lord, what do I look for?
My hope is in you.
Land Law test tomorrow.
Stop This Train - John Mayer
No, I'm not colorblind
I know the world is black and white
I try to keep an open mind
But I just can't sleep on this tonight
Stop this train
I want to get off
And go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly, won't someone stop this train?
Don't know how else to say it
I don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own
Stop this train
I want to get off
And go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly, won't someone stop this train?
So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game
To find a way to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said "help me understand"
He said "turn sixty-eight
You renegotiate"
"Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
Don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train"
Once in awhile, when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
Till you cry when you're driving away in the dark
Singing
Stop this train
I want to get off
And go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
Cause now I see I will never stop this train
The lyrical genius that is John Mayer. From his album "Continuum," highly recommended, highly enjoyed. Damn near made me cry once I found what the words were.
The song is about life, and how fast it passes, and how we can never seem to stop it.
Psalm 39 says
4 "Show me, O LORD, my life's end
and the number of my days;
let me know how fleeting is my life.
5 You have made my days a mere handbreadth;
the span of my years is as nothing before you.
Each man's life is but a breath.
Selah
6 Man is a mere phantom as he goes to and fro:
He bustles about, but only in vain;
he heaps up wealth, not knowing who will get it.
7 "But now, Lord, what do I look for?
My hope is in you.
Land Law test tomorrow.
Stop This Train - John Mayer
No, I'm not colorblind
I know the world is black and white
I try to keep an open mind
But I just can't sleep on this tonight
Stop this train
I want to get off
And go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly, won't someone stop this train?
Don't know how else to say it
I don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own
Stop this train
I want to get off
And go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly, won't someone stop this train?
So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game
To find a way to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said "help me understand"
He said "turn sixty-eight
You renegotiate"
"Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
Don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train"
Once in awhile, when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
Till you cry when you're driving away in the dark
Singing
Stop this train
I want to get off
And go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
Cause now I see I will never stop this train
Thursday, October 05, 2006
People normally chase people, then find out whether they like each other or not. I'm not one of those, I decide whether I'm in the right place, whether I like the girl, and if I do, then i chase after her. It's a method that causes a whole lot of heartache (in a life full of heartaches already) and I guess as a result, I'm very cautious of giving my heart away. Call in insecurity, I call it self-sacrifice. Call it stupidity, I call it living how I want to. I don't care that it's not how the world operates. But that's how I'll keep going, as long as I can. Until someone sees me for who I am.
Call it sentimental suicide... I call it loving the love of your life even before she loves you. I'm going to love her for her, not for my insecurities, not for my need of companionship, not because it seemed the right thing to do at the time.
"i believe, my life's gonna see, the love I give, returned to me."
Call it sentimental suicide... I call it loving the love of your life even before she loves you. I'm going to love her for her, not for my insecurities, not for my need of companionship, not because it seemed the right thing to do at the time.
"i believe, my life's gonna see, the love I give, returned to me."
Friday, September 29, 2006
AOCF Concert 2006!
We haven't had a AOCF concert in 3 years now! I still remember it quite vividly, had a pretty good time, I sang "Sick Cycle Carousel" by Lifehouse, lost in a fooseball match to a 7 year old, and heard after about the numerous complaints we got from neighbours about the noise level! Rest assured we are never welcome to have another concert at that hall anymore. I was nervous back when singing back then. However this time I'm singing 6 songs!! Eek that's a bit of a promotion isn't it?
We still haven't really got a name for the band yet. Although its members consist of:
Baz: Drums
Tian Xiang: Guitar
Amos: Guitar
Iggy: Bass
Me: Vocals
Plus
Tania: Synth
Lily: Vocals
will be joining us for a few songs.
These guys are the greatest, it's an honour to be in a band with these guys. I've always looked up to these guys. They are all so musical, and I feel like I have the least to contribute.
I can't disclose the songs list yet, showmanship you see? Apparently it's not good to let people know what songs you are singing until the performance itself. Kinda like knowing the plot before reading a book I guess? it's much more rockier than what I've ever done though, we've even got a bit of screamo! However I am enjoying jumping around like a spastic schizophrenic bugger on stage, hopefully the atmosphere at the concert will be charged enough so that I can do stuff like that without looking like a complete idiot!
Anyways, the details are:
Location: Elim City Church, 74 Cook Street, City Block District.
Time: 7.30pm
What: 4 bands, 1 dance group, competitions, prizes, FREE ICE-CREAM!
How much: 10 dollars (fundraising for AOCF)
I've had a lot of trouble selling tickets to my friends, I initially thought I'd be able to sell 20 easily, but apparently the 30th September 2006 is one of the busiest nights in people's schedules! Either that or I don't have a lot of friends... People have parties to attend, birthdays to celebrate, pets that need burying, headaches to enjoy.. you get the picture. However people are coming in at the last minute and buying tickets off me, so that's been encouraging!
Lemme know if you want a ticket!
Let's just hope I don't end up being another person. Need a hint? Look down.
Oh well, it's all for the glory of God! Thanks God for the opportunity to sing for You!
Will let you know how it all turns out! :D
We haven't had a AOCF concert in 3 years now! I still remember it quite vividly, had a pretty good time, I sang "Sick Cycle Carousel" by Lifehouse, lost in a fooseball match to a 7 year old, and heard after about the numerous complaints we got from neighbours about the noise level! Rest assured we are never welcome to have another concert at that hall anymore. I was nervous back when singing back then. However this time I'm singing 6 songs!! Eek that's a bit of a promotion isn't it?
We still haven't really got a name for the band yet. Although its members consist of:
Baz: Drums
Tian Xiang: Guitar
Amos: Guitar
Iggy: Bass
Me: Vocals
Plus
Tania: Synth
Lily: Vocals
will be joining us for a few songs.
These guys are the greatest, it's an honour to be in a band with these guys. I've always looked up to these guys. They are all so musical, and I feel like I have the least to contribute.
I can't disclose the songs list yet, showmanship you see? Apparently it's not good to let people know what songs you are singing until the performance itself. Kinda like knowing the plot before reading a book I guess? it's much more rockier than what I've ever done though, we've even got a bit of screamo! However I am enjoying jumping around like a spastic schizophrenic bugger on stage, hopefully the atmosphere at the concert will be charged enough so that I can do stuff like that without looking like a complete idiot!
Anyways, the details are:
Location: Elim City Church, 74 Cook Street, City Block District.
Time: 7.30pm
What: 4 bands, 1 dance group, competitions, prizes, FREE ICE-CREAM!
How much: 10 dollars (fundraising for AOCF)
I've had a lot of trouble selling tickets to my friends, I initially thought I'd be able to sell 20 easily, but apparently the 30th September 2006 is one of the busiest nights in people's schedules! Either that or I don't have a lot of friends... People have parties to attend, birthdays to celebrate, pets that need burying, headaches to enjoy.. you get the picture. However people are coming in at the last minute and buying tickets off me, so that's been encouraging!
Lemme know if you want a ticket!
Let's just hope I don't end up being another person. Need a hint? Look down.
Oh well, it's all for the glory of God! Thanks God for the opportunity to sing for You!
Will let you know how it all turns out! :D
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Monday, September 11, 2006
Highlights of the Hols!
1) Rocking it up with the Six Man Sumo Squat Squad aka Kitten's Kite (depending on which day it is) at the UMSA ball 2006!! I was sick until the last day, couldn't sing at all really, but God was good to me and we did great! Big props to TX, Irvin, Ian, Jun Bin, and our invisible 6th member!
2) Carving it up with friends on the mega-mountain that is Ruapehu! We snowboarded at Turoa, thank God for perfect weather, unlimited visibility, and just the breeze in your face hurtling down the mountain at breakneck speeds and adrenaline pumping through your veins. Best snowboarding ever! Great company too! Ronald, Amos, Ben, Hsen Han, Tania, Cheryl, Gladys, Matt Loh, Evan, Lydia, Ivan, Stephz and Edward!
3) Checking it out at the windy city that is Wellington along with the WICF crew that is Fiona, Francesca, Ruth, Elaine, Jessica, Daniel, Peng, Aik Win, and many many more. You guys rock!! Thanks Peng for putting up with 3 of us for that long, I admire your voice bro! Remember Ruth, we're having that fishing trip with the huge oyster buffet one day!!
The rest of the hols just disappeared in games of dota, my trusty PS2, working on assignments, eating lots of good food (thank you Mum and Dad), and hanging out!
On a sad note, rest in Peace Steve Irwin, we will remember you for your passion and your enthusiasm. You can rest in the knowledge that you did make a difference in making people love animals more. God bless you and be with your family.
On another note,
"Oh Lord, that you would bless me indeed
that you extend my territory,
and that your Hand may be upon me,
and help me avoid Evil." ~The Prayer of Jabez
All for Your Glory, it all belongs to You.
1) Rocking it up with the Six Man Sumo Squat Squad aka Kitten's Kite (depending on which day it is) at the UMSA ball 2006!! I was sick until the last day, couldn't sing at all really, but God was good to me and we did great! Big props to TX, Irvin, Ian, Jun Bin, and our invisible 6th member!
2) Carving it up with friends on the mega-mountain that is Ruapehu! We snowboarded at Turoa, thank God for perfect weather, unlimited visibility, and just the breeze in your face hurtling down the mountain at breakneck speeds and adrenaline pumping through your veins. Best snowboarding ever! Great company too! Ronald, Amos, Ben, Hsen Han, Tania, Cheryl, Gladys, Matt Loh, Evan, Lydia, Ivan, Stephz and Edward!
3) Checking it out at the windy city that is Wellington along with the WICF crew that is Fiona, Francesca, Ruth, Elaine, Jessica, Daniel, Peng, Aik Win, and many many more. You guys rock!! Thanks Peng for putting up with 3 of us for that long, I admire your voice bro! Remember Ruth, we're having that fishing trip with the huge oyster buffet one day!!
The rest of the hols just disappeared in games of dota, my trusty PS2, working on assignments, eating lots of good food (thank you Mum and Dad), and hanging out!
On a sad note, rest in Peace Steve Irwin, we will remember you for your passion and your enthusiasm. You can rest in the knowledge that you did make a difference in making people love animals more. God bless you and be with your family.
On another note,
"Oh Lord, that you would bless me indeed
that you extend my territory,
and that your Hand may be upon me,
and help me avoid Evil." ~The Prayer of Jabez
All for Your Glory, it all belongs to You.
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
God, I miss that feeling
God says "wait"
God, I want to wake up in the morning knowing she cares for me
God says "wait"
God, I want to talk about nothing on the phone with her
God says "wait"
God, I want to act stupid, make her laugh, and brighten up her day
God says "wait"
God, I want to write her songs, poems, letters
God says "wait"
God, I just want to hold her hand
God says "wait"
God, all my friends have boyfriends and girlfriends
God says "wait"
God, I want to be able to call her mine
God says "wait"
God, I want to protect her and take care of her
God says "wait"
God, I'm not getting any younger
God says "wait"
God, this isn't going according to my plan
God says "wait"
God, I don't think any girl could love me
God says "wait"
God, what if I forget how to love
God says "wait"
God, haven't I learnt my lesson yet?
God says "wait"
God, when is she going to come? Will she ever come?
God says "wait"
God, she'd better be worth it.
God said "Oh, she will be."
Till then, I will keep seeking the Lord and do all I can for Him. But know this..
I'm still waiting for YOU...
God says "wait"
God, I want to wake up in the morning knowing she cares for me
God says "wait"
God, I want to talk about nothing on the phone with her
God says "wait"
God, I want to act stupid, make her laugh, and brighten up her day
God says "wait"
God, I want to write her songs, poems, letters
God says "wait"
God, I just want to hold her hand
God says "wait"
God, all my friends have boyfriends and girlfriends
God says "wait"
God, I want to be able to call her mine
God says "wait"
God, I want to protect her and take care of her
God says "wait"
God, I'm not getting any younger
God says "wait"
God, this isn't going according to my plan
God says "wait"
God, I don't think any girl could love me
God says "wait"
God, what if I forget how to love
God says "wait"
God, haven't I learnt my lesson yet?
God says "wait"
God, when is she going to come? Will she ever come?
God says "wait"
God, she'd better be worth it.
God said "Oh, she will be."
Till then, I will keep seeking the Lord and do all I can for Him. But know this..
I'm still waiting for YOU...
Monday, July 31, 2006
Thursday, July 13, 2006
Time
Time
Only Human - by K
On the other shore of sadness,
It is said that there is a smile,
Finally we arrived,
But what are we waiting for?
The purpose is not to run away,
It's to chase after dreams
We should have gone out to travel,
On that summer day so long ago,
Even tomorrow, if you see it.
Thought there isn't a sigh either,
Like a ship going against the current flow,
Right now, go forward, move ahead
Even if it cuts through the rain and clouds
The wet roads shine,
Only the dark will teach,
A stronger and stronger light,
Be strong, go forward move ahead.
Time... there's not nearly enough to do everything I want to do. If I had all the time in the world, I would be able to do it all, I would be able to play ALL of my Playstation games and ALL of my PC games, become good at guitar and singing, pick up a new language, do well in my studies, have a huge circle of friends and maintain close relationships with them all. I would have time for a girlfriend. I think if we all had time, we would be nicer people too.
The thing is, no one realises what they've got till it's gone. You don't realise how valuable each tick is worth, how every day the sun comes up is a blessing from God Himself. You don't know this, until you find out your time on Earth is limited. Ask a 99 year old, ask a person dying from sickness how important is each day? How would you change your life if you knew that you were going to die soon? What would you want people to say at your funeral?
I guess that's why we have priorities in life. We determine what we give each priceless hour of our day to. How do we spend our time, and who/what do we give it to? Are the priorities right in my life? Are the priorities right in yours? Do we do the things that really matter in life? I guess that's what God put us here on Earth to decide.
Life is but a moment, don't regret yesterday, and live today so you won't have any regrets tomorrow. Don't let this make you feel depressed, instead, appreciate each and every rainbow in your life, appreciate the people who mean something to you, appreciate the good, the bad and the ugly.
Lamentations 3:22-23 says "Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness."
Thank you God for every chance I get to wake up, and every day that I get to live to glorify Your name. Thank you for every bad day, thank you for every good day. Help me to live life to the fullest till the day I die. But also help me to do the things that hold true meaning in life.
Time
Only Human - by K
On the other shore of sadness,
It is said that there is a smile,
Finally we arrived,
But what are we waiting for?
The purpose is not to run away,
It's to chase after dreams
We should have gone out to travel,
On that summer day so long ago,
Even tomorrow, if you see it.
Thought there isn't a sigh either,
Like a ship going against the current flow,
Right now, go forward, move ahead
Even if it cuts through the rain and clouds
The wet roads shine,
Only the dark will teach,
A stronger and stronger light,
Be strong, go forward move ahead.
Time... there's not nearly enough to do everything I want to do. If I had all the time in the world, I would be able to do it all, I would be able to play ALL of my Playstation games and ALL of my PC games, become good at guitar and singing, pick up a new language, do well in my studies, have a huge circle of friends and maintain close relationships with them all. I would have time for a girlfriend. I think if we all had time, we would be nicer people too.
The thing is, no one realises what they've got till it's gone. You don't realise how valuable each tick is worth, how every day the sun comes up is a blessing from God Himself. You don't know this, until you find out your time on Earth is limited. Ask a 99 year old, ask a person dying from sickness how important is each day? How would you change your life if you knew that you were going to die soon? What would you want people to say at your funeral?
I guess that's why we have priorities in life. We determine what we give each priceless hour of our day to. How do we spend our time, and who/what do we give it to? Are the priorities right in my life? Are the priorities right in yours? Do we do the things that really matter in life? I guess that's what God put us here on Earth to decide.
Life is but a moment, don't regret yesterday, and live today so you won't have any regrets tomorrow. Don't let this make you feel depressed, instead, appreciate each and every rainbow in your life, appreciate the people who mean something to you, appreciate the good, the bad and the ugly.
Lamentations 3:22-23 says "Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness."
Thank you God for every chance I get to wake up, and every day that I get to live to glorify Your name. Thank you for every bad day, thank you for every good day. Help me to live life to the fullest till the day I die. But also help me to do the things that hold true meaning in life.
My TSCF 2006 Conference experience
I was at the TSCF Conference from the 4th-9th of July 2006 and although I wasn't really looking forward to it, somehow I just ended up there! However I'm glad to say by the time it ended I was wishing it would've went longer! The food there was good but of course not as good as homecooked malaysian food (phew, I won't be 'dibuang negara' now) but after a usual diet of KFC, BK, McD's, Wendys and Pizza's, I was glad to be eating rice and bread.
Also, the messages were just what I needed to hear. Thank God for His impeccable timing again. I was at one of the lowest points at my Christian walk in a while, and spent the first few sessions arguing with God (amazed I didn't get struck by lightning). However God won out [don't try arguing with an omnipotent God, doesn't work] in the end and I had to forgive myself for some things in my life. God also provided me with people that I could talk to, rather than what I've been doing which is struggling with it all alone.
However, the highlight was meeting the FUNNY CRAZY WACKY WEIRD family of God that I found out I had in NZ, especially Wellington but also from many other places!! Honestly it was just so good to meet new people with love for God, and were soo awesome to hangout with. It was so great just meeting the extended family of God!! I have a lot of memories with these people that I just met a few days ago, it's crazy! On the last night of camp we basically pulled an all nighter, driving around Auckland, drinking coffee and eating cake, lying in the middle of Symonds Street at 3 am in the morning, and playing games by Mission Bay. Definately memories I will cherish for awhile! :)
But camp, yeah! Some people said it was boring and not worth going to, but I give it a 9 out of 10!! Why only 9 you ask? Because you'd have to come to an AOCF camp to experience a full 10!!! But yes, I thank God for making it such a great week of my life, and for leading me back to Him, back to the Cross!
PS: it's only a ploy to get more people join AOCF Easter camp next year!
I was at the TSCF Conference from the 4th-9th of July 2006 and although I wasn't really looking forward to it, somehow I just ended up there! However I'm glad to say by the time it ended I was wishing it would've went longer! The food there was good but of course not as good as homecooked malaysian food (phew, I won't be 'dibuang negara' now) but after a usual diet of KFC, BK, McD's, Wendys and Pizza's, I was glad to be eating rice and bread.
Also, the messages were just what I needed to hear. Thank God for His impeccable timing again. I was at one of the lowest points at my Christian walk in a while, and spent the first few sessions arguing with God (amazed I didn't get struck by lightning). However God won out [don't try arguing with an omnipotent God, doesn't work] in the end and I had to forgive myself for some things in my life. God also provided me with people that I could talk to, rather than what I've been doing which is struggling with it all alone.
However, the highlight was meeting the FUNNY CRAZY WACKY WEIRD family of God that I found out I had in NZ, especially Wellington but also from many other places!! Honestly it was just so good to meet new people with love for God, and were soo awesome to hangout with. It was so great just meeting the extended family of God!! I have a lot of memories with these people that I just met a few days ago, it's crazy! On the last night of camp we basically pulled an all nighter, driving around Auckland, drinking coffee and eating cake, lying in the middle of Symonds Street at 3 am in the morning, and playing games by Mission Bay. Definately memories I will cherish for awhile! :)
But camp, yeah! Some people said it was boring and not worth going to, but I give it a 9 out of 10!! Why only 9 you ask? Because you'd have to come to an AOCF camp to experience a full 10!!! But yes, I thank God for making it such a great week of my life, and for leading me back to Him, back to the Cross!
PS: it's only a ploy to get more people join AOCF Easter camp next year!
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Well it's wednesday and my NZ Idol 3 Audition (only the first round, I'm not expecting to be crowned just yet! :P) is on saturday! I'm gonna see if I can grab a friend's camera and take some photo's of the experience, although I doubt they'll let me. Anyhoo, I'm still at a loss for song choice! Eeep I know that's bad! I've been busy studying for my tests though and haven't had much time to think about this. I had a research assignment due on friday, an equity test on monday, and a 50% jurisprudence test on thursday! Oh boy I'm in trouble!
But I'm just gonna give it my best, have fun, hopefully not make a fool outta myself, and if i do, just pop out the "i've had no vocal training" line i guess (kidding!)! I know there will be a lot of talented singers there, but I'm just gonna give it the best I can. I decided to do a bit of research, and here were the songs that the top 10 of NZ Idol2 chose to sing for their Judge Auditions:
Rosita - NZ Idol - I Have Nothing - Whitney Houston
Nik - Runner up - You Should Let Me Love You - Mario
Rongo - Superstar - Carpenters
Keshia - (You Make Me Feel Like) A Natural Woman - Aretha Franklin
Jesse - Be Yourself - Audioslave
Frank - O - Omarion
Ashley - When You Say Nothing At All - Ronan Keating
Steven - Tomorrow - 'Annie'
Teresa - Secret Song - Alanis Morissette
Shelley - ??
I've cut down the list of possible songs I'm going to sing, but I guess I might have to decide on the day itself!
I Can Go The Distance - from Hercules or Michael Bolton
Sukiyaki - 4pm
Eternity - Robbie Williams
Exciting stuff!!
But I'm just gonna give it my best, have fun, hopefully not make a fool outta myself, and if i do, just pop out the "i've had no vocal training" line i guess (kidding!)! I know there will be a lot of talented singers there, but I'm just gonna give it the best I can. I decided to do a bit of research, and here were the songs that the top 10 of NZ Idol2 chose to sing for their Judge Auditions:
Rosita - NZ Idol - I Have Nothing - Whitney Houston
Nik - Runner up - You Should Let Me Love You - Mario
Rongo - Superstar - Carpenters
Keshia - (You Make Me Feel Like) A Natural Woman - Aretha Franklin
Jesse - Be Yourself - Audioslave
Frank - O - Omarion
Ashley - When You Say Nothing At All - Ronan Keating
Steven - Tomorrow - 'Annie'
Teresa - Secret Song - Alanis Morissette
Shelley - ??
I've cut down the list of possible songs I'm going to sing, but I guess I might have to decide on the day itself!
I Can Go The Distance - from Hercules or Michael Bolton
Sukiyaki - 4pm
Eternity - Robbie Williams
Exciting stuff!!
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
Cockroaches aren't the Survivors we would be led to think they are!
Yikes, I have had a phobia of cockroaches ever since I was little! I remember it was one Chinese New Years Eve. Actually these were really fun times as we lived just opposite a field and people would shoot fireworks at each others houses (none actually caught on fire thankfully/woefully!). I was much too young to participate without blowing any of my limbs up so I was made to stand next to my mother underneath a tree. Here I was enjoying the spectacle when suddenly a disgusting little cockroach fell from the tree onto me. It was at night and I was only about 3 then. Imagine my horror (and its horror!) as it scrambled across my body. I think I was yelling and jumping and crying just trying to get it off, and no I did not create the Macarena dance that night! However, since then, I have always been a little wary of the little buggers!
New Zealand is not normally a place where you see too many roaches. The rare ones that you do see are tiny little creatures that wouldn't scare anyone. Imagine my shock when after taking a shower, I saw one crawling on my sink! This one was big for a New Zealand roach (not as big as a Malaysian one though). I freaked! I went around looking for something that could squash it. A book? No, i didn't want to stain my favourite toilet reading material. Some tissue paper? No, those roaches are quick as lightning and i didn't want to feel it struggling before I made it go squish! I then went downstairs and searched for some insectide which I remembered was around the house. Unfortunately I have the memory of an 80 year old goldish and couldn't find it, most probably it never existed! I quickly ran back up to the scene of the crime (or soon-to-be crime as I was gonna murder the poor little thing). It was still there on the sink, sneering and heckling at me!
Lousy Roach! Give you chance to escape and still you want to stick around!
I checked the toilet cabinet and voila, my weapon of choice was at hand! And so I took out the hairspray and aimed it at the arthropod. This was perfect! I would not have to get my hands dirty and there would be a fragrant smell after the deed! I pressed down on the button and let loose on the insect, covering it with hairspray! Eventually it died, a combination of drowning in hairspray and being stuck as a result of the hairspray drying, and was sent to a watery grave (flushed!). I then did a victory jig in celebration of my victory (No i didn't).
However, I was led to believe that Cockroaches would outlast humans because I've heard that even if there was a nuclear bomb that wiped out all of humanity, that Cockroaches would survive the radioactive fallout while we disappeared from the annals of history. However if they can be killed by simply hairspray (although I did administer a LOT of hairspray onto it), I wonder if scientists need to reconsider this proposition. Life lesson learnt that hairspray is an effective insectide if used in copious amounts. Kinda makes you wander what they put into hair spray??
Yikes, I have had a phobia of cockroaches ever since I was little! I remember it was one Chinese New Years Eve. Actually these were really fun times as we lived just opposite a field and people would shoot fireworks at each others houses (none actually caught on fire thankfully/woefully!). I was much too young to participate without blowing any of my limbs up so I was made to stand next to my mother underneath a tree. Here I was enjoying the spectacle when suddenly a disgusting little cockroach fell from the tree onto me. It was at night and I was only about 3 then. Imagine my horror (and its horror!) as it scrambled across my body. I think I was yelling and jumping and crying just trying to get it off, and no I did not create the Macarena dance that night! However, since then, I have always been a little wary of the little buggers!
New Zealand is not normally a place where you see too many roaches. The rare ones that you do see are tiny little creatures that wouldn't scare anyone. Imagine my shock when after taking a shower, I saw one crawling on my sink! This one was big for a New Zealand roach (not as big as a Malaysian one though). I freaked! I went around looking for something that could squash it. A book? No, i didn't want to stain my favourite toilet reading material. Some tissue paper? No, those roaches are quick as lightning and i didn't want to feel it struggling before I made it go squish! I then went downstairs and searched for some insectide which I remembered was around the house. Unfortunately I have the memory of an 80 year old goldish and couldn't find it, most probably it never existed! I quickly ran back up to the scene of the crime (or soon-to-be crime as I was gonna murder the poor little thing). It was still there on the sink, sneering and heckling at me!
Lousy Roach! Give you chance to escape and still you want to stick around!
I checked the toilet cabinet and voila, my weapon of choice was at hand! And so I took out the hairspray and aimed it at the arthropod. This was perfect! I would not have to get my hands dirty and there would be a fragrant smell after the deed! I pressed down on the button and let loose on the insect, covering it with hairspray! Eventually it died, a combination of drowning in hairspray and being stuck as a result of the hairspray drying, and was sent to a watery grave (flushed!). I then did a victory jig in celebration of my victory (No i didn't).
However, I was led to believe that Cockroaches would outlast humans because I've heard that even if there was a nuclear bomb that wiped out all of humanity, that Cockroaches would survive the radioactive fallout while we disappeared from the annals of history. However if they can be killed by simply hairspray (although I did administer a LOT of hairspray onto it), I wonder if scientists need to reconsider this proposition. Life lesson learnt that hairspray is an effective insectide if used in copious amounts. Kinda makes you wander what they put into hair spray??
Friday, May 05, 2006
Well I have pretty much decided to try out for NZ Idol 3 (hopefully I don't live to regret this!) and hopefully I do get around to sending in the registration form because Monday is the final date that it has to be received! However I have been at my wits end deciding what my audition piece should be, so I have come up with the brilliant idea (if it works!) to put up a list of possible songs that I would like to do and have you guys tell me which song I should do!
Now I don't think I'm the best singer out there, I am far from it, but I love to sing and I would definately love the chance to get some guidance from professionals (like Suzanne Lynch who trains the singers while they are on idol).
For an audition piece, it needs to be a piece that will impress the judges, that reveals the strength (and not weaknesses) of my voice, it needs to be memorable and I must be not wearing tight leather hotpants while singing it (or any other embarassing items of clothing, ie. spandex or a tutu). I would love further suggestions too if there are any songs you think I should consider, but here is the current list!
Angels (by Robbie Williams)
Eternity (by Robbie Williams)
My Girl (by ??)
Your Song (from Moulin Rouge)
Like a Bridge Over Troubled Water (by Simon & Garfunkel)
If You're Not The One (by Daniel Bedingfield)
Let Me Entertain You (by Robbie Williams)
Sukiyaki (cover by 98 Degrees)
Please comment and give me feedback, I could be the next idol (or William Hung)!!
Now I don't think I'm the best singer out there, I am far from it, but I love to sing and I would definately love the chance to get some guidance from professionals (like Suzanne Lynch who trains the singers while they are on idol).
For an audition piece, it needs to be a piece that will impress the judges, that reveals the strength (and not weaknesses) of my voice, it needs to be memorable and I must be not wearing tight leather hotpants while singing it (or any other embarassing items of clothing, ie. spandex or a tutu). I would love further suggestions too if there are any songs you think I should consider, but here is the current list!
Angels (by Robbie Williams)
Eternity (by Robbie Williams)
My Girl (by ??)
Your Song (from Moulin Rouge)
Like a Bridge Over Troubled Water (by Simon & Garfunkel)
If You're Not The One (by Daniel Bedingfield)
Let Me Entertain You (by Robbie Williams)
Sukiyaki (cover by 98 Degrees)
Please comment and give me feedback, I could be the next idol (or William Hung)!!
Saturday, April 29, 2006
"That's How Mercy Saw Me"
The years had left scars,
And the scars have left pain,
How could he recognize me,
For I wasn't the same;
I knew I should pay and I knew the price,
For justice and law had demanded my life.
O but his tender heart heard my desperate cry,
And he saw all my past through merciful eyes!
Beautiful, that's how mercy saw me,
For I was broken and so lost;
Mercy looked at all my faults.
Justice of God saw what I had done,
But mercy saw me through the Son;
Not what I was but what I could be,
That's how mercy saw me!
For sin had stolen all my dignity,
And all my self esteem;
But I was made brand new again,
When mercy looked at me.
Beautiful, that's how mercy saw me,
For I was broken and so lost;
Mercy looked at all my faults.
Justice of God saw what I had done,
But mercy saw me through the Son;
Not what I was but what I could be,
That's how mercy saw me!
Not what I was but what I could be,
That's how mercy saw me!
That's how mercy saw me!
The years had left scars,
And the scars have left pain,
How could he recognize me,
For I wasn't the same;
I knew I should pay and I knew the price,
For justice and law had demanded my life.
O but his tender heart heard my desperate cry,
And he saw all my past through merciful eyes!
Beautiful, that's how mercy saw me,
For I was broken and so lost;
Mercy looked at all my faults.
Justice of God saw what I had done,
But mercy saw me through the Son;
Not what I was but what I could be,
That's how mercy saw me!
For sin had stolen all my dignity,
And all my self esteem;
But I was made brand new again,
When mercy looked at me.
Beautiful, that's how mercy saw me,
For I was broken and so lost;
Mercy looked at all my faults.
Justice of God saw what I had done,
But mercy saw me through the Son;
Not what I was but what I could be,
That's how mercy saw me!
Not what I was but what I could be,
That's how mercy saw me!
That's how mercy saw me!
Backlogged To Bangkok
No sorry this post has nothing to do with any exciting adventures to Thailand and there are no Tigers (or Thai Girl's, depending on how you pronounce it *wink wink*) to see here. If you want to read up on stuff like that I suggest you go to www.kennysia.com (shameless plug! good read though!) However I happened to have noticed that my blog is seriously in need of an update!
And since I don't really have the time to write an entry, I found an entry that I was supposed to have posted when I was still in Malaysia. Many things happened then, my niece and nephew were a year older, a potential love was lost, amongst many other things, some things never mentioned will just fade into the fog of forgotten history and I'm alright with that. Anyways, here's the post!
Home is where the heart is… but where is my heart?
And just as quick as it began, it had come to an end. 3 months have flown past! The same sights, the same memories, the same people, the same place that I call home, and now was the time I had to return back to the ‘other place.’ Ironic that soon, this place would be the ‘other place.’ I don’t know which one is home, it is wherever I happen to be, and I am wont to shift. I guess home is where the heart is, and if so, anyone know of a place to donate one since I think I have two.
Leaving so soon?
Having stored up enough memories to make it through another grueling year of university and enough weight to survive the habit of laziness or ineptitude in cooking, it’s time to pack up my bags and leave this place. This feeling of non-productivity chews at my soul, I want to be learning or at least contributing, holidays don’t really suit me and thus it is time to leave. I must really be my workacholic father’s son.
The Linked Independent
I did not spend as much time with my family (especially my parents) as I would’ve liked, for which part I am mostly to blame. But thankfully there will be time when my mother arrives in NZ early March. Living in Malaysia in a house with my parents, my grandmother, my brother, my sister and her husband and her two children (not to mention 3 maids), I am not my own, it will be refreshing to be independent again, but also testing. Do I still have what it takes or has these three months changed me?
The End of an Era
Having spent 3 months in Malaysia, and having seen my friend Jackson almost every day in those months, it is impossible to not acknowledge his friendship and how much it means. The student has become the teacher, and I am now the student and even after many hours of DoTA tutelage, I have come to the conclusion that I am not a very good student. He still gets all the Godlikes and I get the Doglikes. Jackson leaves for America in March, and he is anything like you Matt, it will be 5 years before I see him again because of our differing holidays. And maybe it will bring change, or maybe he will remain the same, time will tell. However it is truly the end of an era.
Ever the same, ever different
Things will be different next year when I come back, we’ll be moving into a new house, my dear cousin will be married, and that new supermarket will be opening up. And these are only the things that I can foresee! How much more those which I cannot? But for now, thank you Malaysia, thank you Sitiawan, thank you Wesley Methodist Church, thank you friends, I will once again grace your shores next year. It won’t be too long till I start working and may not get the chance to come back for long anymore, I will cherish every moment.
John Mayer – “Wheel”
And airports see it all the time
Where someone's last goodbye
Blends in with someone's sigh
Cause someone's coming home
In hand a single rose
And that's the way this wheel keeps working now
That's the way this wheel keeps working now
I believe that my life's gonna see
That love I give returned to me
A sidenote: the search begins again, I am all alone, only God is my sole companion. It stings, but it is for the best for now, God will make a way
No sorry this post has nothing to do with any exciting adventures to Thailand and there are no Tigers (or Thai Girl's, depending on how you pronounce it *wink wink*) to see here. If you want to read up on stuff like that I suggest you go to www.kennysia.com (shameless plug! good read though!) However I happened to have noticed that my blog is seriously in need of an update!
And since I don't really have the time to write an entry, I found an entry that I was supposed to have posted when I was still in Malaysia. Many things happened then, my niece and nephew were a year older, a potential love was lost, amongst many other things, some things never mentioned will just fade into the fog of forgotten history and I'm alright with that. Anyways, here's the post!
Home is where the heart is… but where is my heart?
And just as quick as it began, it had come to an end. 3 months have flown past! The same sights, the same memories, the same people, the same place that I call home, and now was the time I had to return back to the ‘other place.’ Ironic that soon, this place would be the ‘other place.’ I don’t know which one is home, it is wherever I happen to be, and I am wont to shift. I guess home is where the heart is, and if so, anyone know of a place to donate one since I think I have two.
Leaving so soon?
Having stored up enough memories to make it through another grueling year of university and enough weight to survive the habit of laziness or ineptitude in cooking, it’s time to pack up my bags and leave this place. This feeling of non-productivity chews at my soul, I want to be learning or at least contributing, holidays don’t really suit me and thus it is time to leave. I must really be my workacholic father’s son.
The Linked Independent
I did not spend as much time with my family (especially my parents) as I would’ve liked, for which part I am mostly to blame. But thankfully there will be time when my mother arrives in NZ early March. Living in Malaysia in a house with my parents, my grandmother, my brother, my sister and her husband and her two children (not to mention 3 maids), I am not my own, it will be refreshing to be independent again, but also testing. Do I still have what it takes or has these three months changed me?
The End of an Era
Having spent 3 months in Malaysia, and having seen my friend Jackson almost every day in those months, it is impossible to not acknowledge his friendship and how much it means. The student has become the teacher, and I am now the student and even after many hours of DoTA tutelage, I have come to the conclusion that I am not a very good student. He still gets all the Godlikes and I get the Doglikes. Jackson leaves for America in March, and he is anything like you Matt, it will be 5 years before I see him again because of our differing holidays. And maybe it will bring change, or maybe he will remain the same, time will tell. However it is truly the end of an era.
Ever the same, ever different
Things will be different next year when I come back, we’ll be moving into a new house, my dear cousin will be married, and that new supermarket will be opening up. And these are only the things that I can foresee! How much more those which I cannot? But for now, thank you Malaysia, thank you Sitiawan, thank you Wesley Methodist Church, thank you friends, I will once again grace your shores next year. It won’t be too long till I start working and may not get the chance to come back for long anymore, I will cherish every moment.
John Mayer – “Wheel”
And airports see it all the time
Where someone's last goodbye
Blends in with someone's sigh
Cause someone's coming home
In hand a single rose
And that's the way this wheel keeps working now
That's the way this wheel keeps working now
I believe that my life's gonna see
That love I give returned to me
A sidenote: the search begins again, I am all alone, only God is my sole companion. It stings, but it is for the best for now, God will make a way
Saturday, March 25, 2006
I've been blogging on my community blog mostly. It's URL is http://citya1.blogspot.com feel free to check it out if you want but I'll warn you it's full of Manglish and may be detrimental to the educated English speaker! :)
Anyways, I was just reading http://www.kennysia.com as I do sometimes for entertainment. And on it was this post about http://www.myheritage.com. (Wow, there's a whole lot of plugging going on in this blog!) Myheritage.com has this cool feature which checks the characteristics of your face and matches it up against those of celebrities and presents you with the best results! Check his webpage for some hilarious results.
But yeah, being who I am, I couldn't wait to try it out myself. Who would I look like? Orlando Bloom? George Clooney? Maybe even Brad Pitt or good ol Tom Cruise himself. I was sorely disappointed!
Hahah I obviously have a very asian face. Except for the last one! MAN! gotta get rid of my tan :P I'm now very jaded about this service. haha!
~Keep Smiling!
Anyways, I was just reading http://www.kennysia.com as I do sometimes for entertainment. And on it was this post about http://www.myheritage.com. (Wow, there's a whole lot of plugging going on in this blog!) Myheritage.com has this cool feature which checks the characteristics of your face and matches it up against those of celebrities and presents you with the best results! Check his webpage for some hilarious results.
But yeah, being who I am, I couldn't wait to try it out myself. Who would I look like? Orlando Bloom? George Clooney? Maybe even Brad Pitt or good ol Tom Cruise himself. I was sorely disappointed!
Hahah I obviously have a very asian face. Except for the last one! MAN! gotta get rid of my tan :P I'm now very jaded about this service. haha!
~Keep Smiling!
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
Note to self: I need to realise, more likely, i need to accept that nobody in this world is perfect, not even me. I need to change myself to be more accepting of others, including myself. Not in the little things, but in the huge parts of my life. Being a perfectionist sucks~ :)
However, I do worry that if I let myself slip, the world will not be accepting of me. Ahh.. the conundrums of life certainly do tease and antagonise the mind.
However, I do worry that if I let myself slip, the world will not be accepting of me. Ahh.. the conundrums of life certainly do tease and antagonise the mind.
Saturday, March 04, 2006
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
Really sad song, I cried a little while watching, haha am I too feminine? Doubt it :P Plus, it's cool to be feminine these days.
Uhm the singer is Michael Wong Guang Liang, and he's a very famous singer in Taiwan, and he's born and raised in Ipoh! Which is only one hour away from Sitiawan. Hahah it's not impossible to reach the stars even though you were once in the gutter. Gives me hope :)
The song is called Tong Hua or Fairytale from the album of the same name.
Enjoy (or cry rather!) :)
Uhm the singer is Michael Wong Guang Liang, and he's a very famous singer in Taiwan, and he's born and raised in Ipoh! Which is only one hour away from Sitiawan. Hahah it's not impossible to reach the stars even though you were once in the gutter. Gives me hope :)
The song is called Tong Hua or Fairytale from the album of the same name.
Enjoy (or cry rather!) :)
Saturday, February 25, 2006
Well blog I haven't really been in touch with you for a couple months now. I dunno why? I guess there's nothing to write about when everything is smooth sailing. Or that I just wanted to enjoy the moment without having to write it all down.
But i will try to sum up what i've felt, what i've seen, what i've learnt, and who i've lost in a blog soon enough. I just thank God for everything and everyone back in Malaysia. I pray to God that He will continue to teach me to walk in His ways, and to teach me the error of mine. I've still got a lot of growing up to do, must never get complacent.
Keep me close to you Lord Jesus, because sometimes I feel so far away.
But i will try to sum up what i've felt, what i've seen, what i've learnt, and who i've lost in a blog soon enough. I just thank God for everything and everyone back in Malaysia. I pray to God that He will continue to teach me to walk in His ways, and to teach me the error of mine. I've still got a lot of growing up to do, must never get complacent.
Keep me close to you Lord Jesus, because sometimes I feel so far away.
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